Saturday, January 20, 2007

Misery of my desolation

Here I am again... just updated my blog three months ago after a year of hibernating but just really can't get it going. Sometimes I am thinking, am I just too busy? Or I already lost my full-blown enthusiasm in blogging?

What has been happening in my so-called life the past few glimpses after the last time I threw out words in this page? There was my birthday, Thanksgiving Day (as if we care), Christmas Day and New Year's Day and nothing extraordinary that I could think needs to be posted here. I know my life is happy. What is the real definition of "happy" anyway? Sometimes when I recollect things, I see void. I picture myself adrift in a limbo. I only see a limp body of me in a state of oblivion. Hmmm... that is, what I believe an eternal bliss.

Or, am I just in a state of denial? Where can I see myself in between manic and depressive moods? Sometimes I deem that I am far outside this universe and just inside the minute divisible particle of something that exists only in mind. Where am I now?

I might have dropped something in my growing up years that I need to go back and pick it up. I hope it's still not a long way to go....